Monday, May 29, 2006

Confession Time!

I have lied! Well it is not lying as much as it was hiding the truth. Within this week someone asked me a question about somoeone and i didn't answer with the truth. I care about these two people each in a different way and i knew that my answer would have caused trouble for both of them in a way or another. So i prefered to keep the peace going on among everyone and i hid the truth from the other person. But since then i feel as if i have done shee fazee3 and i keep on feeling guilty. If you know me in person you would know that LYING is one of the MAJOR things i hate in this world and it does really really hurt me when i find out that someone has been lying to me, so i wouldn't want to do the same to anyone. Anyway, now that i got it out of my system i will keep this post as an evidence or an apology to that friend i lied to if he/she ever find out about what i hid (which i doubt). At least this post shows the intention behind what i said.

Thursday, May 25, 2006

Hate it when they're right!

A friend of mine called today to tell me about her latest news with her husband. Through the conversation she popped a question out of her curiosity to know if she and I have the same interests or needs. She said “ What do you look for in BM? Or in other words what do you expect from him?” (Yes she still doesn’t know that things have changed now!). So I kept my calmness and didn’t tell her “my latest news” for I do not have the energy to go into such a conversation (at least for now). And then I find myself giving her the following list as if I had memorized them to be recited under oath or something.

What I look for is:
1) For him to love me for what I am and not what he wants me to be.
2) To respect me and be able to keep up with my high maintenance and uniqueness of thinking.
3) To love my family as if they were his.
4) To own the shoulders I run to for a hug when needed and have the fingers that would caress my face to stop my tears or draw my smile (yes me and my weird hands-infatuation case).
5) To know that he’s the one I would want to tell first when things happen to me and that he’s available around when these things happen.
6) To have the right words that would calm me when I break down/burst after a long term of congesting my anger.
7) To be the father of my long-waited for TWINS ;)
8) To be much smarter than I am so I would always look up to him and keep the competition between us rolling at all times.
9) To surprise me with crazy ideas or gifts or even Kisses and Hugs when I least expect them.
10) To share with me his happiness, sadness, fear, craziness, weirdness, friends, relatives, secrets, jokes, hobbies, risks, passions etc.

And after a long list she said “but you never mentioned education, faith, morals, and financial status etc.” That’s when I started laughing and I asked her “why you don’t see that BM has those already?” She then laughed and noticed how dumb her question was. But anyway not to put her in that situation I told her that morals, education, and faith are things I expect as a must for that person to pass my exam for being eligible as a husband and a person to share my life with. As for financial status, that would be a secondary issue that I would look at later. For I am a believer in the fact that both the Husband and the Wife should both be providers for the family’s financial need, in a way or another.

The conversation continued and she was saying that I am such a dreamer and that I will never get a small needle of all the things I have listed above, and that’s when she asked me the other question “if you wanted all of those don’t you think you will need to marry more than one guy to get this long list of yours?”

I found myself answering her with one long sentence…
“ If voluntarily and out of love I am going to be my husband’s Mother, Father, Siblings, Wife, Best friend, Secretary, Mistress, Care Giver (Nanny & Maid) and Mother of his kids; the least I would expect from him to do is to let me know or feel that he was Blessed to have ME in his life and that he would have never wished for anything else.”

At that point, she was speechless and said in a very hasty voice “Ehh lakan Good luck and I’m pre-sorry for all the shocks you will be going through when you arrive to REALITY! Happy Landing!”.

I didn’t really like her answer very much but what could have I said, especially with my current situation with BM. Deep down I knew that she has a point and most of her expectations were valid but I also know that I will always keep the hope that this person does exist!

What do YOU think?

Wednesday, May 24, 2006

Secret Admirer...

Monday, May 22, 2006

Just what i expected!

Monday, May 08, 2006


IF only i knew that getting that new job yesterday, which i've always prayed for, was a morning consolation prize to ease the pain of loosing YOU at night; i would have prayed my whole life for you to stay by my side and the hell with the job!

Tuesday, May 02, 2006

Real 911 Calls !!!

Dispatcher: 9-1-1 What is your emergency?
Caller: I heard what sounded like gunshots coming from the brown house on the corner.
Dispatcher: Do you have an address?
Caller: No, I have on a blouse and slacks, why?

Dispatcher: 9-1-1 What is your emergency?
Caller: Someone broke into my house and took a bite out of my ham and cheese sandwich.
Dispatcher: Excuse me?
Caller: I made a ham and cheese sandwich and left it on the kitchen table and when I came back from the bathroom, someone had taken a bite out of it.
Dispatcher: Was anything else taken?
Caller: No, but this has happened to me before and I'm sick and tired of it!

Dispatcher: 9-1-1 What is the nature of your emergency?
Caller: I'm trying to reach nine eleven but my phone doesn't have an eleven on it.
Dispatcher: This is nine eleven.
Caller: I thought you just said it was nine-one-one
Dispatcher: Yes, ma'am nine-one-one and nine-eleven are the same thing.
Caller: Honey, I may be old, but I'm not stupid.

Dispatcher: 9-1-1 What's the nature of your emergency?
Caller: My wife is pregnant and her contractions! are only two minutes apart
Dispatcher: Is this her first child?
Caller: No, you idiot! This is her husband!

Dispatcher: 9-1-1
Caller: Yeah, I'm having trouble breathing. I'm all out of breath......I think I'm going to pass out.
Dispatcher: Sir, where are you calling from?
Caller: I'm at a pay phone. North and Foster.
Dispatcher: Sir, an ambulance is on the way. Are you an asthmatic?
Caller: No
Dispatcher: What were you doing before you started having trouble breathing?
Caller: Running from the Police.

Monday, May 01, 2006

KARAOKE anyone?


Enjoy ;) I just love dancing and twirling at the beats of this song ;) I feel as if my tension was realeased hehehehehe Yup i am officially crazy ;)