Tuesday, August 30, 2005

Israa' & Mi3raj

A3adahou Allahou 3alykoum bilsihha wal 3afiya ;)

Saturday, August 27, 2005

Bumper Sticker

On one of my long drives during the weekend, i noticed a car with a bumper sticker that read "Help Ever ... Hurt Never". I could swear that these words kept me thinking all the way about how far away are these words from reality for all you get from people is hurt and more worse is the hurt you get from the closest people to you. I think that guy who was driving the car has lots of hope in life and expects the unexpected from people.

eyes wide open,
me

What worries me...

Did you ever go through a stage in your life when you start feeling that you're living a big dream or lie? Or that maybe you have personally varnished everything around you to look the way you wanted it although in reality it is not even close to what you want it to be? I have lately gone through lots of thoughts about these small and big things in my life and i found out that Yes i tend to make things look great although they don't. I hate the way lots of things are happening and occuring consequently as if trying to tell me lots of things i am not aware off or even aware off but trying to deny. I always beleived in following my senses and my heart but lately, and for the first time in my life, i started believing that a i should follow what my brain tells me and not my heart for on both cases i will be hurt but at the end when i get hurt from my brain decisions it must be for my benefit. That too would be new for me for i never took myself as a first priority it was always the people around me and i do hardly believe now that it is time for a change. But the real question is... When will this change occur? Anyway, wish me luck!

rebooting-ly,
me

Wednesday, August 24, 2005

I feel Good tananana Aww ;)

Yup i do ;) see all it took was one call then one missed call then another 2 missed calls then a call ;) Sooooooo... I feel Good tanananan So Good So Good tintintintin hehehehehe 43 ;)


God bless you and all ;)

Tuesday, August 23, 2005

27 Hours!

27 hours for crying out loud... Yes i haven't spoken to you for the past 27 hours! if you think that this is normal then there is something abnormal! Innou i spoke to you 2 pm yesterday and it is the next day now and it is 5pm... don't you wonder where the hell am i ? or what am i doing? or how is my cold? or if am better or not? or if i got things sorted out for the FB?

Innou i know you're busy and that you're always surrounded by people from all around the world but how about an SMS if you can't call or even a missed call or an email or whatever. Ya3ni didn't you have time to go to the bathroom or to change into your pjs or to brush your teeth??? By now i should be important as those things are! Don't tell me that i am asking for too much nope i am not. I am asking for something that has been killing me for the past i donno what. A simple SMS would do the job. How much time would it take from you to say Goodnight or good morning or hope all is well or whatever. Come on i do exist in your world and i know that but i am a girl i need to be reminded everynow and then how important i am to you no matter how much you say it or even how. Again i would say, a simple SMS would do the job.

Innou if it was me in your shoes and you in mine you would have told me (quoting you): "Shou mbayyan bitdallik mashghouli w sar fee meen yilheeky w battalti titzakkareena. Yalla basseeta rouhi kaffee illi kinti 3am ta3imli w sorry 3aliz3aj."

Bass ana mish mitlak w ma rah illak heik bass rah illak "I AM HEREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE, remember, the sweet ME ;)"

Anyway i hope you enjoyed your ME-Free day ;)

understandinlg-ly,
ME

S'il Suffisait...

S'il suffisait d'aimer - Céline Dion

Je rêve son visage je décline son corps
Et puis je l'imagine habitant mon décor
J'aurais tant à lui dire si j'avais su parler
Comment lui faire lire au fond de mes pensées?


Mais comment font ces autres à qui tout réussit?
Qu'on me dise mes fautes mes chimères aussi
Moi j'offrirais mon âme, mon coeur et tout mon temps
Mais j'ai beau tout donner, tout n'est pas suffisant


S'il suffisait qu'on s'aime, s'il suffisait d'aimer
Si l'on changeait les choses un peu, rien qu'en aimant donner
S'il suffisait qu'on s'aime, s'il suffisait d'aimer
Je ferais de ce monde un rêve, une éternité


J'ai du sang dans mes songes, un pétale séché
Quand des larmes me rongent que d'autres ont versées
La vie n'est pas étanche, mon île est sous le vent
Les portes laissent entrer les cris même en fermant


Dans un jardin l'enfant, sur un balcon des fleurs
Ma vie paisible où j'entends battre tous les coeurs
Quand les nuages foncent, présages des malheurs
Quelles armes répondent aux pays de nos peurs?


S'il suffisait qu'on s'aime, s'il suffisait d'aimer
Si l'on changeait les choses un peu, rien qu'en aimant donner
S'il suffisait qu'on s'aime, s'il suffisait d'aimer
Je ferais de ce monde un rêve, une éternité


S'il suffisait qu'on s'aime, s'il suffisait d'aimer
Si l'on pouvait changer les choses et tout recommencer
S'il suffisait qu'on s'aime, s'il suffisait d'aimer
Nous ferions de ce rêve un monde
S'il suffisait d'aimer

Monday, August 22, 2005

Mabrouk ;)

This is the new outfit for the blog hehehehehe ;)

Sunday, August 21, 2005

UGHHHHHHHHHHHH!

I wouldn't mind at all to kick some a**e* today...
I went around hunting for appartments since this morning and i saw 9 different ones which were listed on the uae site.
But the frustration is that all the prices on the site had been actually increased by quarter of the original price. So a 45thousand flat (on the website) would become a 55thousand flat when actually visiting it or a 55 would become 75! UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH i could have killed most of these watchmen. And whenever we asked about the reason they would say these were the old rents since the building existed!!!! or worse "Sorry the apartment is taken since 2 weeks)!!! SO WHY NOT UPDATE THE INFORMATION and save us all the fuss and agony of flat hunting! Now besides to this the even more worse thing is that within the search you have the option of seeing a picture of the building, but these pictures were taken like 6 or seven years ago... so in one case the building we were looking for had different shops in it and we had passed it twice before figuring it out. UGHHHHHHHHHHHHH that's it i have to go rest i think my fever is going up again. mish innou i am full of cold and sick and searching bass kamein i am frustratedddddddddd. Oh i have to mention that by now i have seen 24 flats within the last month and didn't like any; but what is worth mentioning is a flat which had a balcony which could be accessed through the bathroom YES the bathroom, i remember telling my co-worker who always accomopany me for the searches that after bathing i would like to dry myself in the sun out at the balcony hehehehehe and the other thing i have to mention is that one of the buildings which had a really big lounge which could be great for any football player, had an internal wooden door which could lead to the roof. So in case any of the 20 floors building tenants need to access the roof they have to go through this appartment!! can you believe that ! That explains the big lounge hehehehe just turn the lounge into a sheesha place for the tenants and throw some cards, backgammon , and music and there you go no need to work hehehehehe ! Ok i am feeling much better now gtg finish some work for we've been out of the office since morning. I think i am fine now that i screamed my frustration out loud on the blog!

Friday, August 19, 2005

Aqua Massage

yes, i had an aqua massage today for the first time;) It felt weird at the beginning knowing that a machine is doing the job but in seconds that feeling changed into relaxation for it was really good and worth the trial. But this incident kept me thinking about the time that this earth would need to replace people by machines and robots. If you think about it logically you will find that the aqua machine, for example, had to be operated by an attendent and i was in charge of increasing or decreasing the pressure through a remote control-like device. So would people be able EVER to create something that can work on its own with a human brain or is it something we only see in movies and the big screen? I remeber the story of the robotic BEE which took care of transfering messages and notes from one office to another but that BEE still needed to be operated by a human being. So will we ever witness the birth of such a technology or will it stay as a fantasy for us? anyway it was just a thought!

Thursday, August 18, 2005

A Penny...

If only i got a penny, or a 50fils in my case, for everytime i heard a friend's problem i would be the richest person on earth by now. What's wrong with everyone? It seems as if a "depression flu" is in the air. Come on get better soon and SMILE ;) It's just LIFE!

Wednesday, August 17, 2005

Guy Manoukian

I really enjoyed most of the tracks on his Sarab album ;) I think he is really innovative and talented ;)
But personally i think that Omar khayrat and Yanni are the best ever.
I mostly love Omar Khayrat's "Fatima" from his Cleoptra's album and also Yanni's "Until the Last Moment" from his Yanni at Acropolis.
I listen to both tracks whenever i am really fed up from anything and they really relax me soooooooooo much.

tune-ly,
me

Tuesday, August 16, 2005

Overtime!

Yes i am still at work even though all my watches have passed the 5 oclock! Well it is simply Murphy's Law! Urgent jobs and changes at the last minutes, just when i needed the day-off bcoz of my *cough cough* ;) But i should be honest that i don't really mind, i take it as a challenge ;)

workoholic-ly,
me ;)

Dwight D. Eisenhower

"Peace and justice are two sides of the same coin."

Saleimty ;)

I can't explain how sick and tired i am today. My eyes are red for a start. They get filled with tears after concentrating on the screen for less than 5 minutes , i could feel as if i am carrying the world on my head. There is like a dog napping on my chest, and most of all i keep hearing a buzzing sound as if the fire alarm went off. And yet i still came to work today! I am starting a fever again, and could barely concentrate with anyone talking to me but if i didn't show up today who will finish all the "urgent" work that pops up out of nowhere? Maybe i will work for half a day and go rest and in case of any urgent matters i can pop back to the office. Anyway got to go for my eyes are starting to tear. hehehehe this is funny, i ended up explaining how sick i am ;)

*Cough Cough*,
me

Saturday, August 13, 2005

Fear Factor...

With all the things happening lately (which are a lot to handle at once but i'm doing fine , i hope ;), i've been analysing the human kind at a wider perspective from a man vs. woman view.

I have noticed that with all the differences among both there is always one or another similarity, at least.

One common similarity is the fear of commitment.

We girls keep on nagging and nagging about wanting something to happen and wanting to hear those special words and the need of this and the need of that although we know that if one of these things happen it means you are committed to this person so no more other choices, and that's when the fear starts. The fear of him not being the right person. The fear of him being something totally different from what we thought or fantasized about. The fear of all the clashes in character and style. The fear of getting to know the ups and downs of this person. The fear of meeting the parents. Etc. etc. etc. but most of all the Fear of Loosing that guy for something so stupid that we would do as a result of all the Fear Pressure.

On the other hand, guys are always afraid of saying the right words which could mean something serious later on. They are always aware of every word said and every move done which would lead to a disaster if they were misinterpreted by their girl in her own way. For example, sending flowers to a girl who loves flowers might be a disaster for she might think of the relation as getting more serious and would start asking or expecting more. But what they don't get is that these small things are what makes them special or relaxes us more and we would want the current state of the relation to continue for it feels good and special. But in their view this means that the relation is moving forward and the responsibility is increasing and that's when the Fear factor starts to play a big role in all the moves and words.

What i am saying is both girls and guys have the pressure of commitment but each from a different perspective. But this fear would lead to nothing but more pressure and stupid acts as a result which would start small quarrels and leave both parties in an awkward situation. Besides these fear factors add lots of "not-me" quality or actions. For example when i got my flowers after a long time of Why and Why Not disscussions , i was totally speechless but also i was afraid to show how grateful and thankful i was for he might get afraid from my reaction and his fear factors might start. Just like when a guy wants to kiss a girl or hold her hands but doesn't do so for she might think that he is taking advantage of herin a way or another. (i will discuss this in a later blog).

As for now all i am asking for is Be Yourself! If that girl loves you or that guys loves you ... no matter what you do... it is OK and will be fine. So there is no need to panic for it seems we are placing barriers among us without intentions.

problem solvingly,
me

Wednesday, August 10, 2005

Found It...

You know what... after lots and lots of thought, i found the solution for all of this... I will CLONE you ! yes this is the perfect way. You're always busy, there's a lways A something going on somewhere, you're out of town/sight most of the time so VOILA i will clone you ;) this way you will give me the right amount of time which I need just to feel that I DO exist in your fully booked schedule!

dramaqueen-ly,
me

I * YOU!

To get directly to the point for i can't even start i will just quote the lyrics of "10 things i hate about you"!!! YES... That's how mad i am!

"I hate the way you talk to me,

and the way you cut your hair.

I hate the way you drive my car,

I hate it when you stare.

I hate your big dumb combat boots

and the way you read my mind.

I hate you so much it makes me sick,

it even makes me rhyme.

I hate the way you’re always right,

I hate it when you lie.

I hate it when you make me laugh,

even worse when you make me cry.

I hate it when you’re not around,

and the fact that you didn’t call.

But mostly I hate the way I don’t hate you,

not even close…

not even a little bit…

not even at all."

in rage,
me

Thomas Jefferson

"I like the dreams of the future better than the history of the past."

in denial of reality,
me

Tuesday, August 09, 2005

Hierarchy...

There is always a Hierarchy, in a way or another, in every single thing in life even in its simplest forms!

levely,
me

Monday, August 08, 2005

Oh No!

Not another crisis my schedule is full !

cheerfully,
me

Thursday, August 04, 2005

Time Race...

Lately i am having the feeling that i am in a real race with time! I have noticed that most of my plans are scheduled or TIMED!
I have to wake at 7:20am make sure to be out of the house before 7:45am, be at work before 8:00am, make sure not to miss the one hour break, leave at 5pm if no urgent project comes up, reserve 2 hours for lunch/dinner and sheesha with friends, go back home and try to finish everything before 2am when it is time for sleep. SO LITERALLYmy life is a scheduled routine (an oxymorone) hehehhehe. At all these times i look at my watch more than i look at anything else during the day. There is loads of watches at home, one on my mobile, one on my wrist, one on the laptop, one on the office's Mac, one on my working station, one on my car's dashboard etc. so basicly time is watching me more than i am watching it! Just like in cartoons "clocks with eyes"!

Observantly,
headscan

Shopping..

Everytime i go out shopping with my friend we swear that we are going only to this particular shop buy the particular product and leave! That was the plan yesterday!We reached the mall at 5pm and ended up leaving it at 10:30pm! We started with the first shop then the second then the third from one sale to another (but to be fair she needs to shop for she is travelling back home and needs to get loads of gifts, so she finished most of her list). Then we felt hungry taking into consideration that as usual we haven't eaten anything since morning we went for breakfast/lunch/dinner and sheeshas in the mall. then went back shopping again and ended up in Starbucks with a third friend who joined the last 2 shopping attempts we had. hehehehe i should admit it was fun to change the routine but it seems that it is expensive to change the routine for i came back home with 12 shopping bags!

Shoppingly,
headscan

Tuesday, August 02, 2005

Youppiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii ;)

Welcome the new Sudoku winner ;) Thank you Thank you ;)

Monday, August 01, 2005

Soulmate?

I always believed that there is a soulmate for each person on earth (being a lover a friend a husband/wife, etc.) and that it might take a while to find him/her but eventually you will.

With all the things that were on my mind yesterday i was gonna loose that belief and start believing that life keeps on putting us in these situations where you have no idea what is going on or to happen! But by the end of the day, after talking to a very special person, i figured out that all these are just tests for us from God to test our patience, belief, and faith. And because "Inna Allah ma3 al sabereen", patience here i come with wide open arms and a big smile of acceptance for as always i remain "mouttakila 3ala Allah".

May God bless you all especially that person who always offers me a hand to guide me through my way, he's my guardian angel.

Fee aman Allah,
me

P.S.: Guardian angel if you read this, thank you for being there again and again and again...